Tonight it hit me like a ton of bricks.
Boom.
Time is up. Summer is over. Work is here.
Band Camp begins on Monday.
I don't mind work... I really don't. I KNOW that I'm making a difference in the lives of the children I teach. I KNOW that what I do matters, and I KNOW that... hey, I'm pretty good at what I do. :)
I work a full time job to provide for my family. I work a full time job because it is what I have to do. I'm not going to apologize for it, and I'm not going to believe that it makes me less of a mother.
But sometimes--- sometimes-- I just miss my baby.
Time is up. Summer is over and that means the busy season is in session.
My Jason time is okay. He knows how to use the cell phone, and we don't go to bed at 8:00 p.m. every night.
My Grayson time is up. :( I will miss him.
My weekly schedule will be something like this (especially around the end of September through the beginning of November):
Monday- leave home at 6:30 a.m.- arrive back home at 9:30 p.m. Spend 30 minutes with Grayson.
Tuesday- leave home at 6:30 a.m.- arrive back home around 6:45 p.m. Spend 1 hour and 45 minutes with Grayson.
Wednesday- leave home at 6:30 am- arrive back home around 4:30 p.m. Spend 4 hours with Grayson.
Thursday- leave home at 6:30 a.m.- arrive back home at 6:45 p.m. Spend 1 hour and 45 minutes with Grayson.
Friday- leave home at 6:30 a.m.- arrive back home (hopefully) by 11 p.m. Spend 30 minutes with Grayson.
Saturday- leave home at 7:30 a.m- arrive back home (hopefully) by midnight. Spend 30 minutes with Grayson.
Sunday- Stay at home. I just want to cuddle with my baby. 10 hours with Grayson (considering naptime).
So--- there you have it... 19 hours a week with my little guy. We're going to make the most of those 19 hours... we're going to talk, laugh, and play. We're going to forget about work.
That is my plan for now... hopefully I won't cry too many tears. :(
1 comment:
I totally feel the same way about being torn between loving my job (and having to do it) and wanting to be with my baby! I think of what somebody told me though--working mommies may not have the quantity of time, but definitely the quality. I think it's easier to treasure the moments together than it would be. (Not by any means saying anything bad about stay-at-home moms. Just making myself feel better.
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